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    By Wednesday 13
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    Were you always this materialistic, or have the three months we've spent apart finally taken their toll? I'd like to think that they haven't; and that this is who you really are, who you've always been. You just wanted a good excuse to "change" didn't you? I hate who you've "become". Really, I do. I don't care about your new shirts, hats, or watches. Oh, so you got something new, and OMG, it fucking SPARKLES. But does that really define you as a person? Yes, yes, I know. I like nice things. I enjoy buying new clothes, and maybe if I told you how I feel towards you at this very second you'd call me a hypocritial bitch...but never have I felt the need to dress to impress. I've never gone out and bought all this shit just so a certain type of person will fucking talk to me. I dress how I want to impress MYSELF. If I like something, I'll buy it...FOR ME. But never have I gone all out and fucking obsessed over nice shit just so I can roll with a new clique. Maybe it's just the painkillers. Maybe it's just YOU. I don't fucking know. It's just erking me. Because I've known you, on and off...for what? Almost six years now? And to be honest, it hurts that you pretended for so long. That you fucking went and dissed me when you were the one that was so insicure and worldly. I almost want to cry, and I'm not even sure if it's over who you've "become" or over how blind I was for so long.
    Fuck your sparkly shit man.
    Fuck it.
    Because it's not you.
    Fucking strip yourself down and see if you can feel comfortable that way.
    Naked.
    Because in the end, that's all you really got.
    Not the fucking clothes that you wore.
    The clubs that you kicked it at.
    The cars that you bought.
    It's in here *pounds chest* that defines you as a person.
    If only you had that something to feel...

  • If she was skinny, still, you probably would have gotten with her.

    Or maybe I'm just too sick to understand your perspective.

    Which makes me laugh, because yours is almost exactly like mine was last summer.

    Ehhh.

    Fuck this.

    I'm gunna down the rest of my vicodin.

Tuesday, 13 October 2009

  • Slutgarden

    I kinda sorta had a nervous breakdown to Ot3p's Communion earlier.
    But it's okay, I always have, since last summer.
    But, last summer, I never understood it like I do now.

    I'm not insane.
    Although I walk the line pretty damn closely.

    If I showed you how I feel, I'd destroy you.
    And you think it's a joke.
    If only you fucking knew.
    I NEED TO BE ALONE.
    I fucking hate humanity.
    HATE IT.
    HATE IT.
    HATE IT.
    All I need is MYSELF.
    My own lover.
    My own friend.
    My own fucking GOD.
    Ijustcanttryanymore.
    It's burning me out.
    Not you.
    But IT.
    No, not it.
    But TRYING.
    It.

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  • maynardsalterego
    oh, the power of perception. since i am here and my name is Ross, i might as well throw in my two cents. i don't even know what the purpose of our conversations were, concerning "love", but i did learn one thing from all three of us. none of us truly knows what it means.
  • ghettoblaster_xx
    @colorless_clarity - xD that would be an excellent idea. Watch out for other random accounts adding you though. He's quite the troll.
  • colorless_clarity
    @ghettoblaster_xx - o_O wow. its worse than i thought..! i'm just ignoring him now.
  • ghettoblaster_xx
    @colorless_clarity - Yeah, I'm still trying to figure that shit out. He randomly found me, and started telling me that he loved me and shit. Then he sent me a message and said that I was replaced by you (because you talked to him on the phone and I didn't), and I was like "Mmm okay? I don't even kno
  • colorless_clarity
    @ghettoblaster_xx - Umm that's an interesting story o_o I don't know him, never met him, though I talked to him on the phone. He...doesn't seem particularly trustworthy from what I know of him and others' interactions with him.
  • ghettoblaster_xx
    @colorless_clarity - I have YET to figure that out actually xD I'll get to you when I do though. So, don't you know that Ross guy somehow?
  • colorless_clarity
    How do you obtain money without even trying? :) I could use some of that luck!